My Silver Lining
Going grey early sparks many conversations. Most of those conversations are between me and the mirror as I often ponder, “why hairs, why have you turned on me”.
Well I’ve learned a lot from these grey hairs, more than I could ever express. I’ve learned that no hardship goes unnoticed, and every story truly does have a Silver Lining.
You may be wondering what my Silver Lining is. Well I attended Northwest Nazarene University right out of high school, and had some of the best times of my life there. I met people I will have in my life forever, and learned things that were invaluable. In my experience these things were not academic related, in fact I’m pretty sure I couldn’t tell you a lot of what I learned. This was NOT because of the university, because it was an amazing school to get into. I was just never there in my mind. For all of you left brainers out there, I’m sure you can relate.
Book smarts were not my strong suit, even since middle school. I could never remember what I learned in class, or retain common information, even though I studied for hours AND applied myself. School was such a chore, and nothing I was passionate about. Not in the sense that we all do with hours of homework a night, but in the sense that I just didn’t want to do what I was doing, and I wasn’t good at it.
I was studying Political Science because I had a passion for helping women who had gone through human trafficking, or were still in it. There were so many amazing missions out there, like the International Justice mission in Washington D.C.. I set my sights on possibly ending up there one day. In my head I thought this would be a possibility, but in all reality, I had no idea what I wanted. I KNEW I wasn’t cut out for law school, unless it’s the one with Elle Woods. My endless droning on about the positives of law school ONLY being pantsuits, quickly made me realize something. This path was not what I was passionate about.
In conjunction with some family issues, I decided to drop of out school my sophomore year. All the undergrad classes were done for Political Science, and I was leaving my associates degree to fly with the wind! I VERY quickly learned what life was about when I got home, though, and thus began my journey going grey.
I had this idea that I would come home and find out what I truly wanted without any concrete plan. This, of course, didn’t go exactly as I thought. I sit here 6 years later just now (barely) figuring out my path, and have become to realize that life really doesn’t go the way we think. After 3 years of a being a waitress at Red Robin, and 3 years of being a barista/manager of a coffee shop… Everything was becoming way too realistic. Life sucked. This reflected in many aspects of my life, so I knew there was a time to make a change.
As many of you may know, when I left college I started to go grey prematurely. Though it was a little at first and didn’t bother me as much. It got progressively more intense and noticeable. I definitely considered dying my hair for awhile, until one day I began to think. I sat down to wonder what my brand was and how I wanted to represent myself online. It’s so hard to feel the need to be “different and unique” in this day and age. Mostly because that’s pretty much impossible. I knew that I was going grey because of stress and all the difficult times in my life. So I was overwhelming struck with the idea of using that in my work. I wanted to create a spot that highlighted all of the Silver Linings that come from hardships.
Though working as a waitress and a barista was difficult and seriously humbling. I knew that those jobs would eventually teach me all of the things I needed to learn for my future business. Even though I quit school and always felt like a “college dropout” and to be honest… A loser. There were friendships I made and life experience I gained going to college, that I could never learn anywhere else. This all, of course, showed me the Silver Lining in many events, and throughout my every day life.
I want these things to show you, the reader, that whatever you have gone through or have done, there is a Silver Lining. No, not the dumb way of saying “everything happens for a reason” that someone who is annoyingly positive would say. The kind that you see months or years down the line. It’s in the new perspective or in the ever so possible phrase about how hindsight is 20/20. We can all look back on experiences where we are ashamed, distraught, or embarrassed. We wish we could go back in time and change those experiences, but those things make us who we are. They round us out and create unique and individual people all over the world.
So if you are here and you want to create a new, and different life from here on out, you truly can. I am evidence of this and so are many people around us. Don’t let your past define you or make you who you will be in the future. Let today be the next step of the rest of your life (no matter how cheesy a Pinterest quote it is). You are uniquely you and you can make a difference within yourself whenever you want. So take a moment and figure out what that Silver Lining is. Let me know as well!